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My diabetes really is starting to suck! If I eat pretty good but have things like 100 calorie packs and cookies etc. etc. well it doesn't seem to hurt me as long as I am also on plan with WW points wise and not going over but at the same time, I know those aren't the best choices plus none of those things sustain a person very long so of course I'm ready to eat something again almost as soon as I finished that.

 

But if I make better food choices, and eat the way I'm sure WW intends (I mean I know they say you can eat whatever you want as long as you stay on points and follow the healthy guidelines, I'm sure they intend for you to make healthy food choices with your points and not a bunch of junk. I mean sure a person could have a whole pizza or a big bag of candy for the day and still be on points but that's not what they intend) like I did today (I've eaten lots of veggies today, wheat bread, nuts) then I have a sugar low. This is my 2nd one in two weeks. Usually if I have anything abnormal it's a high but lately it's been right where it should be until I started making better choices the past two weeks. Like less diet soda, more water (funny when I stopped drinking so much diet soda my headaches have been considerablly less too), more veggies less 100 calories packs etc. It's frustrating that if I take care of myself I have adverse results and if I let myself go, I have better results (sugar wise) I hate lows. This low isn't as bad as last week's- only borderline low cuz I caught it right away this time so took a glucose tablet. I still feel slightly shaky but not near as bad as the low I had last week.

 

I see my doctor 8/3 so I think I'll ask if maybe I should lower my dose. I only take insulin once a day- 40 units. And no other diabetic meds. I used to take insulin twice a day and metformin at night but last appointment he took me off the metformin and night insulin cuz my numbers were so good. I guess I could always call him now but since it's so close to my appointment I can probably just wait for the appointment. I'll just have to remember to keep my testing kit with me at work now.

 

Oh yeah this is my biggest fear you guys! I have two nights a week where I work 3rd shift so I'm by myself. And so far nothing has happened where I pass out or anything I just get shaky really bad. But my fear is something worse happening now that my sugar lows may be getting common (ok maybe I'm being paranoid I mean it has only been two incidents thus far) and me being all by myself no one would know till my relief comes in the next day. And even then, it would be awhile because I keep the door locked at night for security. And we don't have keys we just have to knock. I know I'm probably worrying for nothing but now it's a fear.

 

I *am* happy to report that unlike last week where I went into panic (some people that know about the sugar low incident that I wrote this too I don't think I shared this part with, I  know I did to some but some I felt embararrased by what I did and was worried I'd be judged but it had been so so long since I've had a low I paniced) and instead of doing the sensible thing and taking a glucose tablet I started eating anything I could find with sugar in it- then I ate so much sugar that I had a high! Plus I gained a pound this week cuz of it. So this time I was much more sensible and just took the glucose tablet and am about to test again to see if I'm back to normal yet. I'm shaking a little still. So I'm not sure.

 

I was finally being excepting of having a chronic disease and having to shoot myself in the stomach then I start having incidents like this and I want to cry! I'm sorry some people loved my post last week when I was sharing this story some even told me I was inspiring. Now I'm a downer. I'm sorry. I'm just really really feeling down in the dumps about having this today because it feels like when I take care of myself and do what I should I get punished (the sugar lows) I know it's good to take care of myself, don't get me wrong. It's just frustrating!

 

Just like it's frustrating that the healthy foods and healthier choices on restaurants cost way more than good for you foods!

 

Ok sorry I was a downer. I don't have these poor me pity parties very often just sometimes I get a little depressed about my condition.